"Don't wait for
extraordinary opportunities,
seize common
occasions
and make them
great."
-Orison Swett Marden
Being alone is scary right? No matter how old we get we will always want know that someone is there for us. Whether we get that from our families, friends, boyfriends or girlfriends. Its comforting to know that when you get sad or super happy, we can call up someone that we know is there for us at all times. Let's pretend everyone is busy, or that we have only ourselves to depend on. What were to happen if we looked to ourselves instead of others when we are going through big life experiences? Looking inside of our own selves when things have officially hit rock bottom forces us to see what we're truly capable of. It forces us to see what we're made of. I think everyone is so much stronger than they ever realize because we count on others TOO much to reassure us that everything is great, or that everything will soon be great. It's taken me about 4 months to truly realize what I am capable of all on my own, and I am still learning how much self strength I actually have. I learned a really good lesson while I was overseas: at the end of your day, when you're laying in your bed, if you can be perfectly content and happy with who you are and what you have done in life, that's when you know that you are okay with being alone. Being okay with counting only on yourself is a huge breaking point, because it means you LOVE yourself, then nothing that anyone can say or do will bring you down. Nothing that anyone can try on you matters anymore because you are happy with YOURSELF. You can like super weird music, or be an outspoken christian, or be a reallllllyyyy big feminist and be okay with that because that's who you are and it doesn't matter what anyone wants to label you as, because you love yourself and you know you're being true to YOU. As a christian, I look to God when I need help making decisions or when I know I've been messing up, or just when I'm feeling like I haven't gotten in touch with him enough the past week. For me to be happy with myself and content being alone takes me knowing that I am where I need to be spiritually as well as physically and mentally. I'll tell you, right now if I were to ask myself if I am okay with being alone, I'd tell you no. I've been making less than great choices and I haven't been looking to God as much as I need to be. My goal in writing this post is to finally admit that to myself. The good thing is though, I know that I can fix that and I know how great its going to feel once I am back to where I am content and happy to be alone. I hope that this post reaches some people who may have needed to hear this, because the feeling of truly loving the person that you are is an amazing feeling that I hope everyone gets to experience.
